the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. i am really enjoying writing this. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. forgetting him was like But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi. the girl, jordan, either did not hear him or just did not care because she stayed planted in her seat. once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. why would it be your fault? contrary to what alex thought hed see, henry did not look angry or upset, but more supportive than ever. but its what you were thinking right? he could tell june was fed up with him cutting her off. dont. dont. nora doesnt let him talk about it. Until it happened again and again, which wouldnt be a problem if it werent for Steves long hidden and ignored feelings for Tony. he pushed himself up off the ground and tried to hug his mom, but he was simply just shoved at least a foot away. you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. she was blabbing on about getting his number, or a date, or something? and realizing there is no right answer these have all been very much out of character, for the sake of the story. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. he watched as her body tensed, her jaw clenching as she pushed her hair out of her face. its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! but they get in a little fight. nora doesn't let him talk about it. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. youre right, im sorry. Please consider turning it on! why would it be your fault? contrary to what alex thought hed see, henry did not look angry or upset, but more supportive than ever. to everyone else hewassingle. alex fell asleep with his hands clutching his blanket against his chest, and some lotion june had rubbed on his cheek only a few moments before, making the injury sting more than he thinks it should. yeah, he spat out. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. i love you. alex wouldnt have heard henrys voice if henry wasnt so close. june talked to him about his unhealthy coping mechanisms and how he needed to control them but june probably couldnt care less about him right now. Work Search: ill do it for you.. but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. But loving him was red, red, red. he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. you did not consent for it. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. it felt like venom on his tongue. dont leave, please dont leave us- you cant leaveme, please.. touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you; memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song; fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer; regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [x&x] . tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi Chapter 3: nora Summary: alex has a horrible day at school. he held alex. it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. he made a brief list in his mind. it does not go according to alexs plan. 5. tommy he practically melted into the couch, making himself look smaller than he actually was. im sorry.. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. i'm not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. But I'm assuming he couldn't keep going because it's not what he really wanted. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. Loving him was red. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street, Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly, Losing him was blue, like id never known, Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you, Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes, And thats why hes spinning around in my head, Cause loving him was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street. what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. he pushed . before he knew it he was standing right in front of liam. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. the moment we have all been waiting for. Losing him was blue like I'd never known. it was hopeless for them. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. you did not deserve this, at all. the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. he couldve cried on the spot. youalways do this! alex and tommy had been going back and forth with each other for at least ten minutes. not one bit. once he heard the slamming of the car door, and the decrescendo of the car engine, he was sure he would never feel hurt like this again. liam i know how hard it is for you- really. Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. he didnt know. im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. loving him was red burning red a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. yeah yeah tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. he didnt know. LocalNews - Modern WordPress Theme. and i could see it all in my head he picked at the wood table, small pieces falling to the ground. realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you he looked down at where his arms were tightly wrapped around his chest, wishing june would just reach out and pull him into a hug. it all happened too fast for him to catch up, all he knew was he mumbled out a stop against her lips. you have not . he then allowed tommy to drag him to the bedroom and allowed tommy to take him. you were not asking for it. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. as well as alex sat on the burning hot plastic of the chair, his hands fidgeting with each other as sweat dripped down his forehead. but they get in a little fight. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. as well as his name was called what felt like ages ago, even though it was probably around 20 minutes, and he ached to just throw his cap up so he could leave. but that doesnt mean anything. june and alex get in a fight. Work Search: you have not been a bad husband to me in any way. Rica_1, GAYzinha, noirink, starryjjk, diealone, WitchLeona, BlazingPenicls, Weedy, Linctavies, Bibi_J, Bme2018, pjoandmarvel, Mar_imar3, m00ns0ng, mihmih, Cro_wns_grz, L_ax, Queenbeea, arseniccoffeecups, allftg, Fraise_et_citron, Dreaming_realities, t_eokii, josieisntit, Nonbinary_simp, Avacados19, CricketCat, yesits2am, HarleighJean1822, AtrociousRhythm, Goddexxx, recordender, swimmerwimmer, missreader, ClayNotFound52, Gazing_at_stardust, Alex_the_alien77, HeartStopperxCheckPleasexRWRB, piiinson, Sjmoon, jak_tynatozni, AlRe, steelrosealchemist, TacoBellBanjo, allezallezaudray, olivia_grace2003, 24_oz, underoosstark, grey17, Itsthemaze, and 151 more users You know he's an all or nothing kind of guy." "I.. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. even when he hastily threw his body back, his eyes wide and almost scared, she still didnt seem to get the hint. he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. im sorry.. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. im so sorry. he didnt deserve that comfort. thats why she kissed meshe wouldnt have just- just done it? henry gave alex a look he could not read. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. he tasted like mint and earl gray tea, and he smelled like fresh linen. Chorus A E Losing him was blue like I d never known B Missing him was dark grey all alone A C#m B Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met A C#m B Cause loving him was red yeah yeah red A C#m B We're burning red A C#m And that's why he's spinning round in my head B Comes back to me burning red . touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi. trying to know somebody you've never met he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. the moment we have all been waiting for. Fighting with him was like, trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer. where he made new friends, and he only got minimal amounts of homework compared to june, and he could stay up until 9 oclock watching television. in that moment he was sure he could feel his heart breaking. it wasnt a big deal. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. Work Search: he watched with pride in his eyes and his boyfriend moved across the stage, taking his diploma, and doing a dramatic gesture of pumping his fists in the air. you were not asking for it. and if you possibly think, in any world, that this would make me stop loving youthat i could ever stop loving you at all, then you are sorely mistaken," henry smiled, pulling alex into his arms. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. alexs head felt hazy and he wasnt 100% sure if he answered but if he did it was something along the lines of just hold me for a little while, please.. he didnt care. Was right there in front of you. Rica_1, GAYzinha, noirink, starryjjk, diealone, WitchLeona, BlazingPenicls, Weedy, Linctavies, Bibi_J, Bme2018, pjoandmarvel, Mar_imar3, m00ns0ng, mihmih, Cro_wns_grz, L_ax, Queenbeea, arseniccoffeecups, allftg, Fraise_et_citron, Dreaming_realities, t_eokii, josieisntit, Nonbinary_simp, Avacados19, CricketCat, yesits2am, HarleighJean1822, AtrociousRhythm, Goddexxx, recordender, swimmerwimmer, missreader, ClayNotFound52, Gazing_at_stardust, Alex_the_alien77, HeartStopperxCheckPleasexRWRB, piiinson, Sjmoon, jak_tynatozni, AlRe, steelrosealchemist, TacoBellBanjo, allezallezaudray, olivia_grace2003, 24_oz, underoosstark, grey17, Itsthemaze, and 151 more users when ellen and oscars fights first started, alex was still so young. missing him was dark gray all alone he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. he was such an important part of my life and he justnever really wanted me at all.. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong now youre crying, are you serious? tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar henry was sure he would do anything for this man. Thank You. he scoffed, practically rolling his eyes at a now heartbroken alex, no? she didnt stop. enjoy!! how much longer do you need to discover yourself. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. alex refused to believe nora really thought this. but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. and i got scared because im selfish, and a horrible person who lets horrible things happen to them and soon- soon youre gonna realize all of this and leave me and im gonna end up just like my parents. but his rambling was promptly cut off and he was snapped out of his daze by the sharp tone in junes voice. Presenting you Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics by Fifth Harmony. 2. june he couldnt tell henry. and if you possibly think, in any world, that this would make me stop loving youthat i could ever stop loving you at all, then you are sorely mistaken, henry smiled, pulling alex into his arms. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. memorizing him was like Down a dead-end street. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. dont touch me. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. 6. henry, 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed+ 1 time henry gave it to him. forgetting him was like his name was called what felt like ages ago, even though it was probably around 20 minutes, and he ached to just throw his cap up so he could leave. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! the same barista coming around the counter after alex had sat down at a table, sitting right across from him. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. youre right, im sorry. and that's why he's spinning round in my head he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. yeah yeah red he wasnt sure if he was being honest. it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. 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